Going away from loved ones or them leaving you...

Going away from loved ones

 or 

them leaving you...


Going away or having a loved one leave me is probably one of my greatest weaknesses as a human being... That pain of having to leave someone so precious to you is worse than a thousand deaths in my opinion... I have had to many people leave me in my life and I'm only barely 15! I've had all of my grandparents on my dads side die along with the fair share of aunts and uncles form both sides. I have suffered enough loss for 6 people together... I don't know how you guys feel about this but my people are the most important things in my life... they top any worldly possession I have. I don't know... I think I'm pretty annoying so I'm gonna leave this off at that... any ways thanks and see you later!  



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